June 23rd, 2007

loki

Come Sail Away: addition

So... the pressure of being left alone to watch my dying grandmother.... unbearable... I was freaking out, checking her every five seconds.  My mom was only gone for a little while but still... I have a headache now and I have to be able to wake my mom up every two hours... I'm thinking that I won't be able to go into work tomorrow.
loki

A Gathering of Angels

So it's 5:18 in the morning that I'm writing this.  I have gotten maybe two hours of sleep tonight.  I don't know if I'm gonna go into work.  We just gave my grandma her medicine.  So far nothing has happened.  Part of me is thanking God she's still alive but the rest of me just wants her to go so she's not suffering anymore.  I hate seeing her in that bed in her room.  I remember my grandma being very active and that's how I want to remember her.  We were just talking to her last week and she as fine.  My parents were just over there.  I don't know what's going to happen and I'm terrified, though I think I'm handling it pretty well.
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